A few weeks ago I had a friend ask me, "What do you do (after church) on Sundays?"

With hesitation in my words but a reality in my heart I said, "Well... Sometimes I just see who can hangout or usually I'll just go places by myself."

She replied, "Oh! That's kind of sad."

I replied, "Yeah. Yeah it kind of is."

You see the deal is that right now, I don't have a close circle, or perhaps a circle at all. I have this map that has humans on it in different places, doing important things. And those places and things keep us distant in ways that aren't the greatest.

I have prayed for friends for as long as I can remember. I am always in a mode of asking God to bring close friends in my life. And I know He hears me, He answers my prayers a lot, so I know it's not a righteous factor here.

I think it's basic for people to long for someone to connect with. We laugh when we're with people and we text when we're not. When there's no one to text there's social media and then Netflix.

We have become accustomed to having places filled in our lives by people.

I dont think this is wrong. I believe that God has called us to be continuously entering into fellowship with others but when someone asks you a question that prods at your lonely state what do you do?

I like to call my first response the Big Girl.

It's where I am super tough and encouraged that I am really never alone only to break a part with tears and awful utterances of this pitiful life.

It's just ugly. I want to say that I hold it together but that's on a rare occasion.

Within all of this I have realized a few things.

1. God never asked me to hold it together. He placed Himself before me to worship, to love, and to fall on when I explode in dejection. His patience is great in my moments of frazzled behavior.

2. I have an amazing opportunity. I am able to praise Him with my heart as I learn how to be satisfied in Him. He is enough, He is my guide, my best friend, and the one who has the best ideas. I am able to learn from Him directly what I can't seem to find in others.

I know many of you can probably relate but you have never been closer to people than at this time in your life. And that's exactly what I am finding. No matter who we are around, we will not be fulfilled! Our temptation is for us to find fulfillment in others, and shoot, that leaves us very dry and devastated.

If you're alone right now, find in Him a satisfaction that takes you places... places that you've never known. Allow yourself to get to a place where there is a freedom to let go of what could be for what is, HIM! You're not far off from purpose, you're not doing the wrong thing. You're absolutely on track. Don't be swayed by groups of laughter while you sit alone. Join in with Heaven's joy and be filled with His smile.

There is so much in this season just for you to embrace.