When Lifeless Becomes Alive
Seasons can feel like a lifetime.
But they're not.
And that's one thing I have had to remind myself in the recent months.
When desires and dreams, hopes and aspirations appear and the possibility of them becoming a reality seems quite impossible, it can be difficult to be present where you are.
Far-fetched longings can often cause us to stretch for something new when we are called to be in the season that we are in for a GREAT PURPOSE.
Not just a little one.
So many things can seem like they have a small impact on our lives when we don't want to be there. We find ourselves wishing to be somewhere else and we slowly forget that no part of our God-written story is small or unimportant.
All things are making us who we are.
In the last season of my life, I was building up to something I loved. I was planning, investing, and sharing about a trip to one of my favorite places on the planet, Mombasa, Kenya.
In one quick moment, this all crumbled. I didn't have a back-up plan for this. I didn't have any insurance to guard my heart.
Because when something breaks, it hurts.
And in that situation, my desire to visit my friends in Kenya didn't just disappear.
I was left with a hope and a calling feeling like a small child holding an almost lifeless pet, hoping for recovery, needing direction, someone to help me know what to do next.
And in the moments where I have felt the expectation to let go and just give up on this desire, God met me.
I only wish I could explain the moments of weariness, sadness, and heartbreak that would randomly occur along this process. Sometimes writing just doesn't cut it like I wish it would. My hope though is that the Holy Spirit meets you as you read this in your season.
It's never fun to think about something that you desire when you don't have it yet if our hope is not in the right place.
When we begin to let the Lord revive what He has given us, truth can win out in our battles. Our expectations don't have to be treacherous and our minds don't have to fear what is to come.
Cause in one moment of worship God spoke to me.
He said February 2.
And when I heard that, I began a new season. All of a sudden. Unexpectedly, but yet here now.
So keep holding on child. For in your worship, your Father knows how to revive that which you love and that which you hold onto. He's with you. He's for you. And He has good things in store.
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Yes!!! I am going to Kenya on February 2 of 2019 and I am pumped! Please be praying for me, praying for Mombasa and the people I will be with and ministering to. Pray for finances because I need those too!
I am estimating the cost of my trip at $2,750. Hopefully I can get enough funds to book a flight as soon as possible so that this cost does not have to go up! If you are interested in giving or more information about what I do in Kenya you can click on the Involvement tab.
XOXOXO