Doubt is real. But it's not more real than Him who created the mind that our thoughts come from, the world where our circumstances originate, and the people that exist in our random situations.

I don't understand God and to say that I do would be basically admitting that I am a fool.

Sure. I know qualities about Him, His flawless character and His matchless authority. But I don't understand Him. He's not something that I have a summary written up about on the first page of my journal. I don't have an instruction manual for Him that you can purchase on my site. I don't even have a spot in my brain where I can say "I've got this Guy figured out," Like God is some kind of skill that can be mastered.

No. God is an infinitely-perfect being. And in Him is His son, Jesus, who is a person that lived on the earth for a some-odd 30 years, but was still fully God and also, His Holy Spirit who dwells within believers today and, is again, fully God.

And just like no one can fully understand you as a person, we cannot expect to fully understand the God who has no bounds or limits to love. The God who speaks and creates. The God who would rather send His son to die so that we could possibly choose Him. The God who would put His perfection inside of crippled humanity.

I think in moments of doubt and worry, I find myself there in the first place because I thought that within myself "I should understand this by now."

And this is where grace is important for us. To continually and daily set ourselves in a position to receive this (grace) that is extended to us.

Grace is what resonates around us and should be within us to silence that which triggers dissatisfaction in our hearts. When His grace becomes real to us in this way, we breathe more. Breathe in His substance of health, beauty, and exceptionality.

Did you know that God understands us, even when we don't understand Him?

Yet, He is okay with this. He holds the weight of our unknowingness. In fact, Jesus held this and put it to rest with the death of Himself on the cross. Every moment of our bewilderment is already paid for. And even now, the Holy Spirit lives within us and He doesn't have an emergency exit door to leave from when doubt enters our minds. He is here for the long-haul.

I believe that God is not looking for a people who understand Him, but seekers who continue to pursue Him as He pursues us within His infinity.

Are we okay with getting to know someone that we cannot master?

God is a continual getting-to-know. And that's how it's meant to be. Not someone who we figure out. Usually we find our security in a relationship that we understand fully. But God is the only relationship that picks us up off our feet and grounds us at the same time. There is always a mystery involved in this Man. Have we set our hearts to know this?

When we worry, it's usually because we believe that we should already know what God is doing in the background. But it's okay that you don't fully know, that I don't fully know. Because this is a pursuit. An endless pursuit, and endless means that there are so many great possibilities. Let grace abide in you so that when you don't understand, His peace fills you and understanding is brought forth through your love-interest in Jesus.

"Don’t be pulled in different directions or worried about a thing. Be saturated in prayer throughout each day, offering your faith-filled requests before God with overflowing gratitude. Tell Him every detail of your life, then God’s wonderful peace that transcends human understanding, will make the answers known to you through Jesus Christ. So keep your thoughts continually fixed on all that is authentic and real, honorable and admirable, beautiful and respectful, pure and holy, merciful and kind. And fasten your thoughts on every glorious work of God, praising Him always." Philippians 4:6-8

His depth is limitless. Let's pursue together, this God who is completely above our understanding, yet completely involved in our lives.